I received an email from the Food Addictions counselor at the Fuhrman Immersion, and she made the following suggestion: ” In addition, I did want to let you know that if you are a coffee drinker, we will not have any coffee served during the Immersion. We will have a caffeinated green tea on request. There will be an assortment of decaf herbal teas available. Now is the time to perhaps wean yourself down.”
What’s amusing to me is my reaction to this. I knew that this is going to happen, and I have already been trying to wean myself down. But for some reason, seeing it in black and white made me want to go drink all of the coffee I can get my freaking hands on RIGHT NOW. Clearly, there is some resistance and defiance going on here. I was joking with my coworker about sneaking Starbucks instant coffee packets into the Immersion. She said she could envision me just snorting them in my hotel room. Ha!! Ah, the mind of an addict.
I heard someone say at my homegroup last week that defiance is the opposite of vulnerability. I keep thinking about that statement, and it is sounding more and more true for me.
I am dreading no coffee. That is all.