44 is the new 16

godzilla submission


One of my sponsees sent me the picture above, and it made me laugh and laugh and laugh. I frequently refer to my Higher Power as Godzilla. Whatever works…

It was my 44th birthday on Sunday. I am so grateful to have made it to 44! With the way I used to live, I am lucky to be alive. It was a great birthday, full of friends and fun and sweetness. There was something called The Glitter Beast, record shopping, zombies, vegan food, coffee and even talk of goats. I actually didn’t think about drinking or recreational snortable substances even once. I still act like I am a 16-year-old girl, and it makes me laugh at myself.

I wasn’t totally happy with my food choices on my birthday, but they were WAY better than last year’s birthday. I’ve been waltzing with the sugar again. I feel so much better in every way when I leave that shit alone and stay 90-100% Fuhrman compliant. I also have been running myself into the ground and not giving myself enough time to prepare my meals or even sit down and eat. I have the extrovert affliction of MUST SOCIALIZE NOW EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF EVERY DAY!! Not because I dislike being by myself, but because I like other people way, way too much.  And then I collapse eventually from not taking care of myself. All of that socializing makes me so stimulated that I can’t sleep! It’s fun, but I need balance. And sleep. Sometimes I need to just take to my bed with a book, Victorian Lady Style.

Today’s food plan: B ezekiel toast, peanut butter,  coffee with coconut & almond milk, Sumo tangerine (OMFG!!! delicious!)//L big ass salad with HSH dressing, sweet potato kale soup//D cooked greens, beans, tahini sauce//S if needed, trail mix

Today’s action plan: literature, journal/blog, prayer/meditation, OA homegroup meeting, outreach calls/texts, sponsee calls, fix billing problems with my renter’s insurance, laundry, cleaning.



  1. I’m glad you had an awesome, sober birthday full of laughs! And, OMG, those sumo tangerines!!! I don’t want to admit how much $$$ I spent on them last year at WF. I’ve been stalking the citrus section here, waiting for them to return. They’re my most favorite fruit. If they’ve arrived in your neck of the woods, hopefully they’ll be in my grocery bag soon.

    I’ll trade you some extrovert for introvert. I love people, but also love my little hobbit hole way too much.

  2. Ha! I had to laugh at both reading this post as well as NG’s last comment above as well. I was totally commenting to say basically the same thing – I’m a little hermit who could use some extroverted energy once in a while!

    I’m so happy you had such a joy-filled birthday. You deserve it! A celebration indeed. I’m glad you born, friend.


  3. Man, I love me some introverts! You guys are like my catnip! Although I do feel bad sometimes when my extrovert effusiveness gets out of control and my introvert friends get this sort of very subdued look of terror…

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