One of my sponsees sent me the picture above, and it made me laugh and laugh and laugh. I frequently refer to my Higher Power as Godzilla. Whatever works…
It was my 44th birthday on Sunday. I am so grateful to have made it to 44! With the way I used to live, I am lucky to be alive. It was a great birthday, full of friends and fun and sweetness. There was something called The Glitter Beast, record shopping, zombies, vegan food, coffee and even talk of goats. I actually didn’t think about drinking or recreational snortable substances even once. I still act like I am a 16-year-old girl, and it makes me laugh at myself.
I wasn’t totally happy with my food choices on my birthday, but they were WAY better than last year’s birthday. I’ve been waltzing with the sugar again. I feel so much better in every way when I leave that shit alone and stay 90-100% Fuhrman compliant. I also have been running myself into the ground and not giving myself enough time to prepare my meals or even sit down and eat. I have the extrovert affliction of MUST SOCIALIZE NOW EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF EVERY DAY!! Not because I dislike being by myself, but because I like other people way, way too much. And then I collapse eventually from not taking care of myself. All of that socializing makes me so stimulated that I can’t sleep! It’s fun, but I need balance. And sleep. Sometimes I need to just take to my bed with a book, Victorian Lady Style.
Today’s food plan: B ezekiel toast, peanut butter, coffee with coconut & almond milk, Sumo tangerine (OMFG!!! delicious!)//L big ass salad with HSH dressing, sweet potato kale soup//D cooked greens, beans, tahini sauce//S if needed, trail mix
Today’s action plan: literature, journal/blog, prayer/meditation, OA homegroup meeting, outreach calls/texts, sponsee calls, fix billing problems with my renter’s insurance, laundry, cleaning.