I stopped blogging here for reasons that are not totally clear to me right now. But the time has come to exhume this blog and start anew…my program and my food plan are slipping and sliding all over the place, and I feel like I need an anonymous forum where I can write about my struggles with recovery and spirituality and food and all things 12 step related. It always helps me to blog, and it really helps me to blog anonymously without fear of judgement or harassment. I had been using an online form for all of my food thoughts and struggles, and it felt too…public. I used my real name and it was always slightly uncomfortable. I know that anonymity protects not only the individual, but also the 12 step organization itself. I don’t want my slipping to be the single example of program that people encounter. I can only speak for myself. The upside of that forum is that I met some amazing people (hello, amigas!) and learned a lot. But I think the public posting combined with a lot of residual “diet mentality” from other members was starting to cause me a lot of anxiety, and that’s not where I want to be.
I have switched my food plan since September of last year to Dr Joel Fuhrman’s Eat To Live/Nutritarian plan. My doctor is extremely supportive of this, as is my new sponsor. I have a LOT that I want to write about this, but I need to gather my thoughts and let the fog clear.
Today’s plan of eating is simple:
B green smoothie (almond milk, kale, chard, pineapple/mango/strawberries, 1 scoop of raw protein powder, 1 tbs chia seeds), peppermint tea
L salad, bean soup and Health Starts here date/nut “dessert”
D in all likelihood, soup or juice. I am having some dental work done and I am not entirely sure if I will be able to chew or tolerate hot/cold.
pray, meditate, read literature, blog and/or journal. Get horrid dental work done. Sponsee calls, call sponsor, attend a meeting if I am not in too much pain.